He won't go away, and I can't break free. I am crying as I write this evening. I am so tired of this and want to just stop. I don't want to keep going, it seems so much easier to just give in and quit. I feel like I am shutting down and it scares me so much. I had to call off of work today to take Nick to the doctor after he got hurt last night playing basketball. I called first thing in the morning giving work plenty of time to find a replacement. ED wouldn't leave me alone about my decision. Telling me they will fire me or just think I am not a dependable worker. I emailed my boss and she emailed me back and her response made me feel like she was on Ed's side. I told my mom about the email and she thinks that my boss was confused and told me to email her back to clarify things. I did and even asked for a meeting with her to get on the same page with her. I feel like I need my boss's support, especially when ED judges me about my job performance. This is the first time I have ever called off a shift, and I am always working when they call me at the last minute needing someone to come in.
I am dreading waking up in the morning, it is a long day of classes and I don't feel up to it. I want out of this, what did I ever do to receive this life sentence?!
Stay Strong and Beautiful! <3
i'm sure your boss understands. it's okay to miss a day every now and then, especially with how much you deserve it! love you puff and don't give up!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure it will be fine. Hang in there. There are so many people who love you and think you are awesome - and ED knows it. You listen to us and not him. You are a good person, smart and beautiful!! ((HUGS))
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