Things have been getting very busy lately. My weeks are filled with school and working, some evenings even working out. On the weekends I try to catch up with Nick and my family. I have to admit, I am starting to get a little overwhelmed. At the moment the school work is not stressing me, however attending the classes is very time consuming! I know I have to do it, but when I have a million other things on my mind, it adds to the stress.
Tonight I listened to some training sessions for my Jewelry business and it added to my state of panic! The thoughts of failure are constant. What if I get through these first few parties with my family and then that is it? No one else to ask, or to get sales from? I am so afraid that this won't work out. I am willing to put in the time and effort to making my business successful, but if I can't get the clients, then I can't get any further.
I mentioned earlier that I have been working out lately. I am being very good at not over doing it. Once or twice a week I will go to a dance studio and take some dance classes, even boxing. There, I am under supervision and have support of other women. At home, I will do ten minutes of ab work and that is it. I have started taking vitamins and drinking more water. The exercise and extra care is making me feel a little more confident in my body. It feels really good! Just gotta get past this stress and I will be fantastic!!!
Stay Strong and Beautiful! <3
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Tammy's Story
A friend of mine wrote a post for the blog. I appreciate her taking the time to write it, I know it is very hard to do. I love her very much and have great respect for her. She is a mother and can offer insight on being a mother with ED that I cannot.
Hello my name is Tammy. I am a 37 year old mother of 3. I have 2 boys 17 and 14 and a girl 12 they are my life. I have been battling with bulimia for 24 years. Ed has always been here for me, I go to him with every problem or stress that arise. He assures me as long as I have him in my life everything is going to be ok. Everything is not ok. Ed tells me I am worthless, fat, ugly, undeserving of happiness. He has robbed me of so much in my life, so much time, so many relationships. I have always put Ed above all else at times even above my family. My children are aware of my bulimia and it scares them and makes them sad but most of all it makes them angry. They do not understand why I can not just stop. It is very hard for them to understand how much of a hold Ed has on me. I wish I was strong enough to conquer Ed. He does not deserve to win or destroy any of our lives, our spirits, or our courage.
Through the past 24 years Ed has made my life miserable. I live with so much pain, hurt, and guilt. I have several mental and physical issues but I am not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself. I know God takes care of me and without him I would not be here today. With God all things are possible!!! I also have a wonderful support group.
If there is one thing I could tell you it would be if you are struggling with an eating disorder tell someone right away. Get help as soon as possible. The sooner you do the quicker you can kick Ed's butt and never let ED WIN!!
REMEMBER YOU ARE STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL!!
Hello my name is Tammy. I am a 37 year old mother of 3. I have 2 boys 17 and 14 and a girl 12 they are my life. I have been battling with bulimia for 24 years. Ed has always been here for me, I go to him with every problem or stress that arise. He assures me as long as I have him in my life everything is going to be ok. Everything is not ok. Ed tells me I am worthless, fat, ugly, undeserving of happiness. He has robbed me of so much in my life, so much time, so many relationships. I have always put Ed above all else at times even above my family. My children are aware of my bulimia and it scares them and makes them sad but most of all it makes them angry. They do not understand why I can not just stop. It is very hard for them to understand how much of a hold Ed has on me. I wish I was strong enough to conquer Ed. He does not deserve to win or destroy any of our lives, our spirits, or our courage.
Through the past 24 years Ed has made my life miserable. I live with so much pain, hurt, and guilt. I have several mental and physical issues but I am not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself. I know God takes care of me and without him I would not be here today. With God all things are possible!!! I also have a wonderful support group.
If there is one thing I could tell you it would be if you are struggling with an eating disorder tell someone right away. Get help as soon as possible. The sooner you do the quicker you can kick Ed's butt and never let ED WIN!!
REMEMBER YOU ARE STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL!!
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