A friend of mine wrote a post for the blog. I appreciate her taking the time to write it, I know it is very hard to do. I love her very much and have great respect for her. She is a mother and can offer insight on being a mother with ED that I cannot.
Hello my name is Tammy. I am a 37 year old mother of 3. I have 2 boys 17 and 14 and a girl 12 they are my life. I have been battling with bulimia for 24 years. Ed has always been here for me, I go to him with every problem or stress that arise. He assures me as long as I have him in my life everything is going to be ok. Everything is not ok. Ed tells me I am worthless, fat, ugly, undeserving of happiness. He has robbed me of so much in my life, so much time, so many relationships. I have always put Ed above all else at times even above my family. My children are aware of my bulimia and it scares them and makes them sad but most of all it makes them angry. They do not understand why I can not just stop. It is very hard for them to understand how much of a hold Ed has on me. I wish I was strong enough to conquer Ed. He does not deserve to win or destroy any of our lives, our spirits, or our courage.
Through the past 24 years Ed has made my life miserable. I live with so much pain, hurt, and guilt. I have several mental and physical issues but I am not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself. I know God takes care of me and without him I would not be here today. With God all things are possible!!! I also have a wonderful support group.
If there is one thing I could tell you it would be if you are struggling with an eating disorder tell someone right away. Get help as soon as possible. The sooner you do the quicker you can kick Ed's butt and never let ED WIN!!
REMEMBER YOU ARE STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL!!
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